Enough is Enough!

So, as you know I've been wanting to lose weight since having Holly...7 MONTHS AGO.  I started out with the best intentions and then there was always something that came along to knock me off course. Only there wasn't, I knocked myself off course!  It was just so difficult.  Poor me, having a baby made me fat.  Only it didn't.  I made me fat!  No one force fed me those biscuits, did they?

I'm not lying to myself any more. Enough is enough.  I promised myself I'd have lost weight by the time I went on holiday.  That was months ago, and my holiday is now 6 weeks away.  I've not put nearly enough effort into losing weight.  Always blaming something else for my failure, when it is my fault.  If I continue this way I'm never going to lose weight.  There is always going to be an excuse I can think of to eat crap, always.  I need to stop giving in.  I WILL stop giving in. 

First goal.  To lose some weight in 6 weeks. Generally my diet isn't too bad, I just need to cut out the crap! I don't expect to lose a lot, but it is a start.  Every time I make ONE excuse to myself as to why I should eat something bad, I will think of  TEN reasons not to.  If I feel the urge to eat something bad I will go and do something to take my mind off food until the urge passes.  Losing weight doesn't have to be hard, I don't think I have to deprive myself. SIMPLE.

I noticed something in the shower this morning which really motivated me to get my bum in gear.  I noticed that underneath my bingo-wings my arms are VERY muscular!  You are probably thinking that is a stupid thing to say and that everyone has muscle under their fat!  Do you know what I mean though? What I mean is I've never had muscular arms.  Even when I was really slim and definitely not any time I've been heavy...I've just had more fat under my fat! I'm putting it down to carrying around a 17lb baby every day.  Seeing it, and feeling that muscle under there made me realise that my body CAN look how I want it.  I just have to uncover what is underneath the fat!

Until then, I'll keep you posted!